6/21/2009

瘦奶奶百日, 我三個月前的email. 100th day after my grandmom's repose, my email to re-post.

不好意思, 一直沒有聯絡. 我的另一個外婆, 瘦奶奶, 已於三月十四日過世. 我在不到三個月的時間內失去了我的兩個外婆, 加上十四年前過世的外公, 我最重要最愛的三個人都已經不在這個世上. 瘦奶奶最後一個月受了很多的苦, 但是她撐著到我農曆生日的那一天. 這次整件事都很奇怪, 我想胖奶奶,瘦奶奶兩個親姊妹一輩子九十年的朝夕相處, 這樣的緣分誰也捨不下誰吧. 我很痛很痛, 人生跟世界對我來說再也不一樣了. 但是大家不要擔心, 我還是會一樣的, 我現在唯一的希望就是能把他們都生回來, 或是有一天我可以跟他們三個人生生世世永永遠在一起, 我只要他們三個, 我們再也不要分開. 希望大家一起幫我想願, 並獻一柱心香.
我會於三月三十日回台北一趟, 待到四月二日. 我已先辦休學, 還沒有定回程機票的時間, 大概會待到四月下旬. 謝謝大家的支持及幫助.

Sorry for not keeping in touch, my "thin" grandma passed away on March, 14th. I've lost both of my grandmas on my mother side in less than 3 months, together with my grandpa on my mother side who passed away 14 years ago, I've lost all three most important, most beloved persons for me in the world. Thin grandma suffered a tremendous deal in her last month, but she waited until my birthday in Chinese Lunar calendar. The whole thing is very strange, many things I can't explain; both of my grandmas on my mother side are blood sisters who have lived together side by side for 90 years, I think the special affinity and connection in between them have made them inseparable. This is extremely painful for me; the whole world and the rest of my life will never be the same for me any more. But please do not worry about me, I am still the same, my all and only hopes are that they will come back as my children in the future, so I can have another chance to protect them, to take care of them; and/or I can join them one day, and be with all three of them forever; they are all I want, and we will never separate any more. I hope you can wish this for me, and pray for all three of them.
I'll be in Taipei from March 30th~April 2nd, and then back to Taichung. I've left my school and I have not booked the return date, most likely I'll be back to the US in late April.
Thank you very much for all your helps and supports.