11/25/2005

being sick ... again

The dates are uncanny. I was sick exactly a month ago, and now, I'm having my maybe-flu-maybe-cold routine again. So much for the flu shot that I gave it a try for the very first time this year. Well, it's more like a flu last time and more like a cold this time.
Anyway. I hate dry and cold weather. Why do people even live in colder and dryer places ?
There are double layers windows here and there are double-double layers(4 layers) windows in Russia.
I miss hot and humid !

表嫂救的小狗

表嫂來信。原來好心又熱心的她救了一隻狗,希望找到善心人士收養這隻殘而不廢的乖狗狗。
我幫他POST一下,請大家告訴大家,謝謝。
Name:秀秀 XiouXiou
Breed:台灣混種土狗 Mix
Location:台北 Taipei
Age:兩歲 2 years old
Gender:母 female
Description:
秀秀是在芝山捷運站附近被民眾拾獲並送到動物之家。據民眾描述,秀秀已在路上呻吟好幾天,她攤在地上好幾天沒有進食、喝水,身上留著被車輾過的血跡,下半身混著血、尿的臭味、尾巴也壞死了。原本以為她無法承受這樣的痛苦,但一天又一天她展現了堅強的求生意志,在醫院住了將近20天的她,恢復了原本活潑、堅強的個性,即使她必須倚靠輪椅的輔助,才能自在走動,但樂觀的她好像什麼事都沒發生。秀秀很愛乾淨,不亂吠叫。她唯一需要的是有一個愛她的家庭,有個空間可以讓她帶著輪椅運動。期待你的愛給秀秀永遠的溫暖,請給她一個機會,相信你也會感染到秀秀的活力及堅毅的生命力。
XiouXiou was rescued from the animal shelter thin, weak, and paralyzed after being hit by a car three days earlier. But her eyes were shining, showing the strong will that we all know and love her for. Although she cannot use her back legs, she loves to scoot around and explore her surroundings. She is full of life and refuses to give in to her condition. XiouXiou needs a wheelchair to get around and a little more care and attention than other dogs, but we think she deserves it. Her strong will and shining eyes will win you over, and she is guaranteed to make you appreciate life a little more. Please consider giving her the loving home she so deserves.
Contact:
宋小姐 sherry.sung@msa.hinet.net
Date:
11月16日

11/20/2005

我的台灣之一

連上新聞網站,一則吃百萬松露的新聞就跟老人兜售車票賺取微薄差價的消息放在一起;打開報紙,一邊是名牌衣飾動輒數十數百萬評論還直稱划算,一邊是又有人為了數千數萬元全家自盡。
這是很奇怪的,詭異的感覺需要大腦去調控才能平衡,五味雜陳是低估了,還沒分析完所有的感覺,生的氣也不知道有沒有用。
沒錯,這是一個民主自由資本主義的社會,大家各憑本事各取所需,應該是公平競爭的,但是一段時間了,台灣的標準跟準則我越看越不懂。
回家時,打開電視,從新聞到娛樂節目我都很疑惑,連SNG出人們的直接反應我都很驚訝。但是,不是我變了,這些年自己在美國,沒錯,因為沒有adult supervision,完全自己發展,個性中原有的一部份更被加強,但是我還是我,記憶中的台灣不是這樣的。
就像記憶中台灣是可以說錢淹腳目的,現在也只是記憶中。
其實我不該驚訝的,如果女星未婚生子、鑽戒值多少、胸部是不是真的的新聞,都可以蓋過台灣政治官員上行下效的貪污腐敗濫用權力早就該下台百萬次的重要性時,大家也都覺得沒問題的時候,我這流落在外的台灣人又能說什麼呢?

11/14/2005

Enigma and all the past time

Listen to the music of Enigma. "To return to Innocence", actually the voice of Taiwan, the song of the aborigines, but still, no one knows it's from Taiwan, besides the people in Taiwan.

It's been a while that I'm "re-listening" my old CDs; it's a strange feeling, to look back and pick up something I once obsessed about, like I bought some DVDs earlier this year for my old time favorites collections; it's like reading an old diary of myself, I couldn't even recognize my own hand writing, and amazed about "oh, I once know that ?".

I guess being 30 years old gives myself some history to be "discovered" again, by myself. Looking back, every period of time, I have my zealous favorites to enjoy alone or share with friends, chapter by chapter, and as daily life progresses and time goes, each chapter closes or opens, and integrates into life, my life.

Re-open an old chapter also brought up the linkage of past time, which I can't believe it's already past, and long ago. I guess in a way, I change, since my chapters keep on changing, but, in another way, I don't change, because once I look back, I'm still the same person, shockingly the same.

Sometimes you feel time has pushed you in the back, or dragged you in the front; but sometimes like this, you feel time just filters you through and passes, and you, are still there.