9th Thanxgiving ~

Post Thanksgiving, Pre Xmas, if you will.
It's a time for especially Americans to prepare for the holidays and the new year. A little bit similar to the post New Year, pre Chinese New Year time in Taiwan.

My mom thinks it's not really a benevolence to have all these holidays, because it will just make people with less feel even worse.

As for me, the older I get, the less spirits I have for these holidays. Well, the Chinese New Year is still fun with all the food, but even that I don't feel too much necessary to wear brand new clothes for the first day in the Chinese New Year according to the traditions. Probably in this aspect I grew into an adult, -- it's just nice to have some days off.

The funny thing is that, we always have our Xmas tree set up from the Xmas to the Chinese New Year during my growing up years back home in Taiwan. And here I am in the US, as a foreigner and as a constant traveler, family and home are terms half earth away, rental apartments and visa jobs are neither words for even temporary relieves, Xmas trees are equivalent to wishes: better not to have them.

According to the story of the Pandora's box, when it was accidentally opened and all these negativities coming out to the human world, but one thing left, hope. Hope is maybe a more moderate word than wish, but I still can't say that since my reality costs too much to spend any on those words. I don't think I lost the ability to dream, but I think I lost the ability to believe dreams, and make them true.